Chapter I: Chained and Carved
The Butterfly is Victim to My Haste
Jacob Saunders
Zhuang Zhou, the butterfly is victim to my haste.
When the dragon’s-mouth and grass pink open in the wetland and I, driving in my car,
winding home, slowing before the cracked pavement at the sunken train track, hear the pock
against the windscreen.
bruxist, Tiger Swallowtail
sick with dice
leaps in jags like a burst kite
studding its soured eggs in a canopy of thought. I see my mother on the threshold,
come in, come in.
Many years have passed since, but now the house is shelled out and the thick clear plastic
billows against the bare frames. The floorboards upstairs are pried out and I see the floating
doors of our bedrooms. Your sister is here somewhere, she says.
My mother grips me outside, trembling at the monstrous thing.
She sobs—
What can we do?