{"id":159,"date":"2021-04-14T10:48:44","date_gmt":"2021-04-14T14:48:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/?post_type=chapter&p=159"},"modified":"2021-04-21T17:04:00","modified_gmt":"2021-04-21T21:04:00","slug":"unease","status":"publish","type":"chapter","link":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/chapter\/unease\/","title":{"raw":"unease","rendered":"unease"},"content":{"raw":"hands clenching hands\r\n\r\nshivers and chills\r\n\r\nan empty hollow chest\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nlungs that never\r\n\r\nquite catch a breath\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nlightheaded and empty\r\n\r\nwords escape my tongue\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nlanguage never quite describes\r\n\r\nthe feeling of panic\r\n\r\nthe next moment of silence\r\n\r\nwhere tunnel vision is all there is\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nice and fire all at once\r\n\r\nthe need to move\r\n\r\nwhile paralyzed\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nunbearable discomfort\r\n\r\nyearning for the hands\r\n\r\nof a monster\r\n\r\nto rip out my chest\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nwaiting to see my heart\r\n\r\nmy lungs staring at me\r\n\r\nin fear instead of\r\n\r\nunabating anguish\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nclosed ears\r\n\r\nopen mouth\r\n\r\ngasping for air\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\na shaking leg\r\n\r\na restless mind\r\n\r\na vanishing memory\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\non the tip of my tongue\r\n\r\nwords dance elegantly\r\n\r\nbut stumble\r\n\r\ntheir way out\r\n\r\n \r\n\r\nfalling from quivering lips\r\n\r\nhitting every obstacle on the\r\n\r\nway\r\n\r\nway\r\n\r\nway\r\n\r\ndown.","rendered":"

hands clenching hands<\/p>\n

shivers and chills<\/p>\n

an empty hollow chest<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

lungs that never<\/p>\n

quite catch a breath<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

lightheaded and empty<\/p>\n

words escape my tongue<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

language never quite describes<\/p>\n

the feeling of panic<\/p>\n

the next moment of silence<\/p>\n

where tunnel vision is all there is<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

ice and fire all at once<\/p>\n

the need to move<\/p>\n

while paralyzed<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

unbearable discomfort<\/p>\n

yearning for the hands<\/p>\n

of a monster<\/p>\n

to rip out my chest<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

waiting to see my heart<\/p>\n

my lungs staring at me<\/p>\n

in fear instead of<\/p>\n

unabating anguish<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

closed ears<\/p>\n

open mouth<\/p>\n

gasping for air<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

a shaking leg<\/p>\n

a restless mind<\/p>\n

a vanishing memory<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

on the tip of my tongue<\/p>\n

words dance elegantly<\/p>\n

but stumble<\/p>\n

their way out<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

falling from quivering lips<\/p>\n

hitting every obstacle on the<\/p>\n

way<\/p>\n

way<\/p>\n

way<\/p>\n

down.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":78,"menu_order":5,"template":"","meta":{"pb_show_title":"on","pb_short_title":"","pb_subtitle":"","pb_authors":["michelle-westerkamp"],"pb_section_license":""},"chapter-type":[],"contributor":[67],"license":[],"class_list":["post-159","chapter","type-chapter","status-publish","hentry","contributor-michelle-westerkamp"],"part":22,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/159","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/chapter"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/78"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/159\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":286,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/159\/revisions\/286"}],"part":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/parts\/22"}],"metadata":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/159\/metadata\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=159"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"chapter-type","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapter-type?post=159"},{"taxonomy":"contributor","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/contributor?post=159"},{"taxonomy":"license","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.upei.ca\/artsreview-x\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/license?post=159"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}